Well, I finished 2009 on an up note and that is always a good thing! I was committed to keeping track of what I ate and starting to exercise again. Exercise still just wasn't something I had gotten back to yet on a regular basis- and my baby was 2 years old at this point- its time to get back to basics.
January 2010 I was 162.5- YAY!! back to being overweight. I never thought I would be so happy to say I was over weight. I had been, again, obese for so long. If you have never been overweight or struggled with your weight you just will not ever be able to understand the self loathing that happens when you don;t lose or even worse gain weight you had previously lost. You really, emotionally beat yourself up, at least I do.
The scale for me has become not just a machine that measures my weight, it also measures how good I am being. I have a tendency to over eat, to gorge myself. It is so sad. And sometimes when I binge I just sit and look at all the empty wrappers and wonder- why? why do I hurt myself? Why don't I love myself enough to not do this?
So I continue to watch portion sizes and work on exercise. As the months go by, I do the bounce around again :/ 161,160,160, 159 in February. Then in March more action 157!, 155,155, 156.5, 157, 153, 152 and then in April I broke the 150's and saw 149.5! I then bounced back into the low 150's until the end of June. Then I saw 148.5.
148.5 I had not seen that number in over 5 years and I had it back. I have done it I have gotten back to where I left off.
In July 2010 my husband took an assignment that has him out of town a lot. I decided to cancel our Y membership- which only he used and save that money and get a treadmill. I bought a treadmill at www.SmoothFitness.com I love it.
It was delivered on August 5 and I started using it right away. I started doing the Couch to 5K program found at www.coolrunning.com and started really using an online site to count calories. www.caloriecount.com
August 4, 2010- the new beginning. I was 151.5 pounds. I took my measurements the first time on August 9th and take them every Monday now. I followed the C25K program for running training. I suffered a lot with leg and buttock pain from my piriformis muscle. It really slowed my training. Finally, a friend talked me into buying new shoes from a running store. I did and was amazed at what a difference it made!
I ended 2010 at 139.6- a number I never thought I would see. Didn't even seem possible when I was 213( 206 on the old scale) pounds!
What else happened it 2010? I found out I wasn't actually 5'2", I am actually only 5'1" inches- that means normal weight for me is 132, instead of 136. I am finally so freaking close! I found out I can run,and not taste blood. I found I love running & exercising really hard so I am covered in sweat- I get an amazing endorphin rush and it keeps me going. And lets talk about amazing I completed not one- but TWO 5Ks- wow- this from the girl who couldn't even run a block, or even one time around a track. Never underestimate your ability to do more than you thought.
I started doing Pilates & Yoga on days when I didn't run. I also go back to strength training. I lost over 20 inches just from August 9- December 31, 2010! WOW!
Onto 2011....
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